By this
John 13:35 By this all men will know that you are my disciples, if you love one another.
I recall a time when this was easier to obey. Not that I had the beast mastered. But I didn't try to establish my devotion through Word and Deed of Astonishing Maturity. I had not yet learned to comfort myself with a plan to Do Something with My Life. I had a healthy interest in Having Friends, and a greater interest in Being a Friend. I felt it was important to talk with God before I left, while in the car, upon arrival, and at rough spots along the way-- and by "felt it was important", I mean that I generally did it, however poorly. I wanted to love better.
I'm not a different person now. I love better than ever, in some ways. I've just become... more watered down, submerged in other things. Not growing so fast. I guess there will be times when I'm slower than others. But I don't ever want to stop.
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You know, I always feel lame telling people, "I know exactly how you feel," or "I know exactly what you mean." Partly because I like to form my own opinions and partly because sometimes people say that to me and I hate it because I know they don't know and are just trying to pretend like they know or are trying to make me feel better about myself.
But I know what you mean. I don't even want to stop loving and growing. But somedays it just doesn't happen at all. Some weeks I feel so disconnected from God. I get so wrapped up in my "own little world" that I forget that God is the one who made that "world" possible.
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